Prematurity Awareness Day

November 17th is designated by the March of Dimes as Prematurity Awareness Day. Preemie moms are asked to blog about their experiences with prematurity and how it has affected our lives.

I had one of the most ideal pregnancies. I suffer from migraines- they were gone, and I had no headaches when I was pregnant. I have horrible acid reflux- ironically, my reflux was also completely gone during pregnancy. At doctor's appointments, my weight gain was ideal, they always found the heartbeat easily and it was strong and my ultrasounds were textbook. My doctor always joked that I was having a very uneventful pregnancy- status quo. At my 24 week appointment, I mentioned to my OB that I suddenly couldn't wear my wedding bands and my face *looked* swollen to me. It was also July in AL..and he said all your labs look great, welcome to being pregnant in the South in the Summer. I laughed and went on my way. 2 weeks later I went back after I got really high blood pressure readings at home. My blood pressure was so high at the doctor's office that they didn't tell me the number for fear of freaking me out. I still had ONLY a trace of protein- the doctor said it was barely a trace. He thought I was having an anxiety attack and just needed to rest so he admitted me for observation. The rest of the details are blurry to me, b/c 1. I don't remember much about the next 3 days and 2. I was kind of in and out. Sometime that evening I was transferred by ambulance to USA Children's and Women's hospital. My pre-eclampsia and HELLP syndrome had progressed at record speed and USA had a level III NICU....By 1 pm the next day, my organs were failing and I was prepped for an emergency c-section...I was on so much magnesium sulfate to prevent seizures, that I don't remember anything except the feeling that I was about to die- I remember that vividly. The night after I delivered, my sodium levels suddenly dropped and I went back down to labor/delivery so that I could be monitored 24 hours (very much like ICU). I was in the hospital for a week with blood pressures as high as 200/130- it was terrifying. I kept waiting to hear "we've done everything we can."

My husband said that Robinson came out screaming!! A fighter from the beginning. He was technically a 26 weeker but suffered from IUGR, so he was the size of a 24 weeker- 1 pound 7 ounces and 12 inches long- he was known as 'foot long' for a little bit. He was on a cpap for a few hours, but then needed the help of a ventilator. Before Robinson, I did not know ANYTHING about having a preemie. I didn't honestly even know that a baby could survive at 26 weeks- I was very ignorant on the subject. Robinson has taught me a great amount. On his 3rd day of life, Robinson suffered a pulmonary hemorrhage. Many preemies do not recover from this type of injury. They feared that he would have numerous brain bleeds and that there would be permanent damage. Robinson proved them wrong again...he had NO brain bleeds....and the hemorrhage was found to be caused by a very wide open PDA that was not responding to meds. At 4 weeks old, he had heart surgery to ligate the PDA...at 4.5 weeks, our man finally came off of the ventilator and on a CPAP...2 months later, on his due date, he came home.

Robinson has taught me so much. The most important lesson is to never lose faith in God because you never know what he has planned for you. God knew that we were meant to be Robinson's parents and that we could love and care for him and help him in his developmental life journey. We cherish each day with him- yes we have frustrating days, just like any parent, when he won't nap or keeps getting into things he shouldn't...but those days also bring huge smiles to our faces because we GET to HAVE those moments- we are PARENTS!! So, it does make those moments a little more bearable and laughable. He has brought so much joy into our lives and I can't wait to see the boy, the teenager, the man, and ultimately the husband and father he will become.

Having a preemie changes everything about your life. You view everything differently- most importantly you become a germaphobe! You try to protect your child and may be a little on the extreme of over protection. You eventually find a balance and realize that you have to let them live their lives (i.e. I'm finally letting Robinson join Th.eLi.ttle.Gy.m!) There will always be cause for concern- can he handle it? will he get sick? are his lungs strong enough? will he be put in the hospital? It's scary stuff, but it's also wonderful to have him here with us, smiling and laughing. He is such a happy toddler.

As the mother of a preemie, you have some realizations- I will never experience childbirth. If we are fortunate to get the green light to try again for another biological child- I will very likely have another preemie, and most definitely have another c-section. There is no hope for me to go "natural" Most people don't know this about me, but I was *planning* on trying to go natural without an epidural or any drugs....I have a pretty high tolerance for pain (I was at work 2 weeks after my c-section...1 week after my hospital discharge)...I think I'm tough- and I think I could have done it, given the chance. I will never know....

I will not know what it's like to have a true baby shower- we had our shower while Robinson was in the NICU. I barely got to wear my maternity clothes...I didn't have a belly for that long. Heck, I JUST started feeling Robinson kicking before he was born.

And finally, I will never know what it's like to hear my baby cry and hold him/her when they are born. I don't remember Robinson's cry because I was so out of it from the mag/sulfate- I actually passed out during the delivery and didn't come to until recovery...I didn't get to hold Robinson until he was almost 5 weeks old....and for 2 months after that, I was allowed to hold him for about an hour at a time so that his body temp would stay consistent....so if you say Robinson is spoiled because I pick him up every time he so much as wimpers- I don't mind- he and I are still catching up on our snuggle time.

Am I bitter? NO
Am I angry? NO
Am I sad? I was, but I'm not anymore.

I have a stronger faith in God than I have ever had in my life. He felt that I was special enough to get to experience a true miracle- Robinson is truly a miracle. I feel so very blessed and so happy to have him in our lives. He brings meaning to my day and peace and happy dreams to my nights. I am a stronger person for having to endure this journey. Of course, I still have a long way to go-- I have spent so much time focusing on Robinson that I have realized that I need to set a little time a side for me-- I've started working out again, and I'm trying to get myself healthy again. Having a preemie has taught me that not only do I need to rejoice and cherish Robinson's life, but I also need to thank God that I am here on this Earth to experience and see my little man every day. My disease progressed quickly and it has taken me a looooong time to bounce back. I need to make sure that I take care of myself and get in a good place, so that I can be with Robinson and Rian for many, many years to come.

Having a preemie has changed my life- for the better. I am a stronger, more positive person and I cherish each and every day. Although, I would not wish having a preemie on anyone- God trusted us to handle His planned path, and I trust Him to have the strength for tomorrow.


Please visit the March of Dimes web site for more information on Prematurity Awareness Month and what you can do to help ensure that "one day, all babies will be born healthy."

Developmental Appointment

Last week we went to Robinson's Developmental NICU f/u appointment. These appointments are always rather long and tedious. Trying to get a 15 month old to do exactly what you want at that exact time isn't always easy. It's important, though, to talk to the doctors and therapists to make certain that Robinson is not falling behind in any areas. You want to catch these things early, so that you can schedule physical, occupational or speech therapy to help him catch up developmentally.


Our appointment went very well. Robinson was very active and willing to participate. The session itself lasted about 30 minutes, so he was worn out afterwards. The doctor said gross and fine motor skills are still at his actual age of almost 16 months. She said his hand/eye coordination is phenomenal and probably a little ahead of his actual age. She was very impressed that he already colors and knows how to hold a crayon correctly and knows what to do with it. Coloring is one of Robinson's favorite things to do now. He loves to listen to music and color- do we have a future artist on our hands???


She said socially and cognitively he is still ahead of his actual age as well. She said he interacts well, is very curious and tries to figure out how something works, plus, he follows commands extremely well- which as far as speech goes, she said he's doing well also. He's probably somewhere in between his adjusted and actual age on speech, but she said he's so independent that he doesn't have to ask for it- he just does it himself! The doctor was very pleased with him...extremely pleased at his growth and his health...we haven't even had a cold or ear infection yet (BIG KNOCK ON WOOD)!! She wants us to get out more this winter. She said use common sense- don't go where there are a lot of kids, but he needs the stimulation. So, we'll go to the stores and parks when they are less crowded, etc.


We are so proud of Robinson and so thankful and grateful for how blessed we have been throughout this year and a half. We continue to pray for Robinson's health and his growth and development.

Trying some chocolate for the first time- he's still not into sweets- much to his Daddy's disappointment!

Forward Facing in the carseat in Mommy's new car!!

New Haircut- 'drop and give him 20!'

Here is a video of Robinson doing some of his 'tricks'. At 15 months old Robinson is:

*walking/running
*saying dog, duck, mommy, daddy, hey (with meaning)
*copying simple stuff that we do
*on complete table food
*using sippy cups proficiently
*opening/closing doors and turning pages in books by himself
*can open and take and put objects in closed containers
*can stack blocks and other objects
*can ride his fire truck
*and I'm sure a thousand other things that I'm forgetting right now :)

3 Years is a Charm

Tomorrow, Rian and I will celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary!

So much time, for obvious reasons, is devoted to Robinson, and I wanted to set aside a special post to let Rian know how special he is to me as well. He is my rock and my best friend. He makes me laugh...and he listens. He has helped me to be so strong throughout this last tough year, and I look forward to many years to come.


Cheers to Mr. Turner!

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween everybody!

Robinson had a great time dressing up and went outside and played in the yard long enough for me to take some pictures. However, he didn't nap well all day because he is cutting his molars and by 6pm he was done! haha We went ahead and took a bath and he was in bed asleep by 7pm. Of course, our first trick or treaters didn't show up until 7:15 (we live in a VERY large neighborhood and we are in the back, so it takes them a while to get to our house). I felt bad that he didn't get to see any of the kids dressed up, but so glad that he cooperated long enough to put his costume on and let Mommy play photographer! Enjoy!! The Holiday Season has begun...YAY!!

Our Little Pumpkin

He is LOVING being outside and running lately- all boy!

Robinson and his Nana

Daddy and Robinson

Isn't he cute?!

We went inside for a little bit because it was so cold here, and Robinson didn't like. Here he is with his Poppa trying to 'pout' to let him back outside!

So...I gave in :)

Robinson and Mommy

that hat cracked us up

Ready to Trick or Treat....maybe next year!

15 Month Pedi Appt.

A quick post to update everyone on Robinson's 15 month stats:

weight- 25.1 pounds

height- 31 3/4 inches

He is in the 50th percentile for his actual age for height, weight and head circumference. His pediatrician joked that "he is very symmetrical" haha It is a good thing, though, because it means that he is catching up physically and that his physical development has caught up to a full term baby. This is probably the size he would be at 15 months had he been full term. For a preemie mom, those are extremely comforting words to hear.

He got 3 vaccines this week, Hep A, Dip, etc, and the season flu vaccine. Their office does not have the swine flu vaccine but hopefully they will have it in the next month or so. Robinson is high priority to receive the shot, but our pedi and both Rian and I are in agreement that since he is not in daycare and Rian works in a small office that we will wait until the pedi's office has the shot. We aren't going to take him to the health department or stand in long lines- the benefits wouldn't outweigh the risks in that situation. Hopefully we can keep our little man well again this year!

As far as RSV season goes....Robinson does not qualify for the synagis shots this year (ironically since he's been so well...argh), but his doctor doesn't feel it is a necessity for him so she's not going to appeal. We trust her judgement, but that does mean that we'll have to be careful this year. We are not going to be in hibernation like we were last year, but we still need to lay some ground rules:

• if you hold or touch Robinson, you still need wash your hands beforehand- I know this seems silly, but with all of the flu going around this year, this is really something that everyone needs to be more diligent about for their own health, as well
• if you are sick, we can not be around you. period. so please let us know before you come to visit, or before a mutual gathering
• if you smoke, you can't hold him or be around him until you change your clothes

Again, I know some of you think we are being ridiculous, but we are just being cautious. Robinson is showing the early signs of asthma (could be due to being on the ventilator for so long in the NICU, but it could also be just genetic). His doctor prescribed Singu.lar for him to see if that would help....you see, he wheezes on occasion. Nothing to be overly concerned about or jump the gun...BUT it is something we need to watch and make sure that we are proactive. It mainly happens when he's running/playing really hard, or after he has drank a lot of fluids. It goes away with a small cough- which is what you want to happen. They think it's a combination of his reflux and bad allergies- and possibly the start of asthma. They don't diagnose children with asthma until they are older (usually 5 years), so it is a wait and see game right now. We are just so very lucky and blessed that he has done so well and we continue to pray every day that he stays healthy and continues to grow stronger.

Happy Halloween-- of course, I will post pictures soon!

March of Dimes/March for Babies

This weekend was the March of Dimes March for Babies for our area. This is an event that raises money for the March of Dimes. The March of Dimes helps fund research for premature babies. Robinson would not be here today if it was not for the tireless efforts of the March of Dimes. I'd be lying if I said that I haven't struggled from time to time with the amount of stress that having a premature baby brings in your life- let alone one that was 3 months premature. When I heard about this event, I really felt led to do all that I could do and raise as much money as I possibly could for this organization. In a way, they have given us so much, and I wanted to give back to them.

I enlisted the partnership of my good friend and neighbor, L to help me fund raise. I have to say that the March of Dimes makes it so easy with their online tools. I also have to give a BIG shout out to Fac.eb.ook because MUCH of our online donations came with posting our information on that social network. I was so touched with how giving family and friends were for this cause. People that I rarely get to talk to (and hardly ever see) took it upon themselves to donate and help us with our efforts. I am so humbled and grateful.

Our efforts paid off immensely. I do not know what our exact total was yet, because my aunt/uncle, grandmother, and parents each wrote a check that day (a big thank you to them), BUT I can tell you that was OVER $1500....AND we won 3rd place for the event for fundraising!!!! This is HUGE because the only 2 teams that raised more money were both corporate teams- a hospital and a grocery store. I felt so proud that our little 3 person team (L, my mom and myself) were able to help raise that kind of money for the March of Dimes.

It was a little cold for the walk, but we had so much and of course everyone ooohed and awed over our Robinson. It made me so grateful for how far we've come. I feel that I made something positive out of something that was so traumatic. I also feel compelled to participate in this event every year so that someday, somewhere, another mother of a 26 weeker might be able to sleep a little better at night and breathe a little easier during those first hard days at the side of an isolette in a lonely NICU.

It was a little cool and breezy, so we bundled the little guy up.

The Happy Family

THE Walking TEAM- on the back of our shirts it said "Lace Up Your Sneakers for our 26 Weeker"

Robinson had a blast

Mommy and her Little Man

Picture Post

So I have been a very bad blogger lately, so to redeem myself, I am going to just give you a post full of pictures- because, let's be honest, we all know that's why you come to look at the blog anyway...

He's not a real fan of the carseat...we are still facing him backwards per the pediatricians' rec. She wants him backwards facing until atleast 16 months- she said that there is a lot of data that shows that they are significantly safer facing backwards as long as possible....so we'll follow her opinion- she is the doc!
He loves spaghetti

He has such a sweet smile

Feet in the sand with Daddy

Family photo on the beach

Eating bacon and eggs and Nana's and Poppa's

Just to give you a reminder...the onesie is front this time last year and the tshirt is what he is wearing this year!

GO USM!

and GO SOX! The shiner is from running away from his Nana and meeting the asphalt face first!
Don't you just love that little smirk?! I'm going to have to shut the door in the girls' faces later ;-)

REAL REVIEW 'KozyPal Cart Covers'

Obviously, with Robinson being so mobile now, I have VERY little time to blog. When he does take a nap (which is usually short and very rare), I'm rushing to throw in a load of laundry or unload the dishwasher! haha...our days have become very busy which I love and when he goes to bed at night, I'm usually too exhausted to even think about anything else.





I have decided, though, since so many of my friends are pregnant or have had babies recently that I would make a point of reviewing certain items that we've used and bought. This way you get to see what they really look like (via my pictures), plus you get a real person review and not some standard web site answer. I'm going to call them my "REAL REVIEW" posts.





My first "Real Review" is KozyPal Cart Covers. I had heard about these via a friend and wanted to check them out. They are shopping cart and high chair covers. You all know what a germaphobe I am, and with Robinson being a preemie, I can only say that I've gotten worse! The thought of shopping carts grosses me out, especially since Robinson wants to lick everything right now! ewww





I love this cover. It's so cute. You can pick your fabric and pick which add-ons you want (you can have a sippy cup holder, diaper holder, leg extensions, etc.) Plus, you can have it monogrammed. They also have ready made covers that they frequently put on sale when inventory is low. I can not recommend this cover enough. I've already washed it twice and it washes extremely well and holds its shape- which was my main complaint with other covers that I've tried. They either didn't hold their shape or the color faded, etc...they didn't last long at all. This cover is fantastic.





So, I encourage you to try it out! I'll have a link in this post and there will also be a link at the bottom of my blog web site. If you click on the link it will take you directly there AND if you buy a KozyPal from my web site- I get a little commission! That's right, I love these things so much that I've officially become a 'blog referral site'. So- buy one for you and your little one to put your mind at ease about germs in the upcoming Holiday shopping extravaganza!!

Here is Robinson in his KozyPal on our recent shopping trip.

Walking On Sunshine...

Robinson has 'technically' been walking for about a month now, but it was never more than a couple of steps--- until this weekend. Check out the little man, go!

We are so very proud of him!!

Don't forget to donate to our March of Dimes Walk!!

March for Babies

As we approach September, we are only about 50 days away from a very important event that is special to our family- the March of Dimes- March for Babies. This is an annual fundraiser/walk to help raise money for the March of Dimes. The March of Dimes is committed to helping find cause/cures for premature babies. The research that they have done has helped so many babies survive and we couldn't be more thankful for their continued philanthropy and dedication to the cause.

We feel so blessed to have Robinson in our lives. We feel committed to helping the March of Dimes so that hopefully another family might not have to experience the roller coaster of prematurity. This last year and has been both so rewarding, but also so terrifying at times. It has made us stronger and closer as a family and we are so grateful for all of the obstacles that Robinson has overcome.

There is a link over to the side of this blog. If you feel that you would like to make a donation in Robinson's honor, we thank you. All you have to do is click on his picture and it will take you to our donation page. Please feel free to pass along to family and friends. We will be walking on Oct. 24th. If anybody would like to join our team and walk with us that morning, please just email me and I'll let you know the specifics.

I normally do not feel comfortable asking for donations, however, this is truly a unique not for profit organization and I BELIEVE in everything that they are trying to accomplish. Thanks in advance for listening and always supporting our family. We truly could not have made it through this last year without the love and support of our family and friends!